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[Jul. 26th, 2012|02:44 pm] |
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Welcome to my humble little space on the web.
This is the place where I pen my thoughts and opinions.
5 years down the road I'll look back at this journal and have a good laugh.
I'm not a particularly interesting person. I'm just me.
I love the smell of paper, crayons, paint and freshly cut grass.
I enjoy going to second hand book stores as you'll never know what you're gonna find.
This is just a little part of what I love.
I hope this enlightens you a little about me.
Oh and I'm really addicted to milk tea ;)
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[Dec. 10th, 2009|07:38 pm] |
UGH! I feel so lazyyyyy! YES, lazy with a capital L. D:
I've got an essay to be completed and I've yet to start on that...
I've been putting that off for almost 2 weeks now!
Sucks that due to workload our animation for the competition isn't complete = non submission.
Damn it. We were so close ):
I hope next semester will be better. |
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[Dec. 6th, 2009|04:37 pm] |
HOHO, LJ is totally whacked out. Can't type anything so this is literally copy and paste from word. D:
I guess once in a while it's good to take a step back at marvel at the world's beauty? But how can you
do that when you want to keep progressing forward? At least that's what I would really like.
I'm totally not in the mood to work, which sucks.
I'd really love to get into the 'work-non-stop' mood now.
Somehow it's not happening and I'm sitting around wasting away.
I'm going to cultivate a right mood to do work now.
Or maybe it's just a mental block?
I don't know :D
The reason why I never liked staying home or going home early. |
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[Oct. 6th, 2009|12:22 pm] |
Well sem 2.1 results are out. All I can say is I'm happy about it. Not the best, but still I didn't give it my all therefore I reap what I sow.
Nevertheless I'm happy about it! xD And holidays are busy busy busy. |
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[Sep. 27th, 2009|12:45 am] |
There's a little more to go, a little distance left before everything falls into place. The surroundings around me seems rather distant. I wonder how much more change must I subject myself to adapt to? Much to my displeasure, the upcoming step is something I'm rather avoiding at all costs. I'm just really tired at all the shit life throws at you. I deduced a new meaning to life. How funny, I seldom say such things, or rather used to but kinda stopped because I met a group of really great friends I can rely on. I guess life is like a game of chess. By taking the wrong move you allow the opponent to see your flaw, a route that leads to checkmate. Well, so we must play it slow and carefully, putting every chess piece to optimal use. Take chances and fates for an example, if they slip by there's no second time. I guess it's just my mere opinion, but still there's just so much things going on right now. I want a breather, a break from the chaos that's accumulated.
I'm not denying that I'm running away from reality. Despite the times I've told myself to take it like an adult and I can't expect everything to be perfect. I'm not that strong of a person, there's a limit and I think this is it. I can't face what's about to happen. In life there are times when we choose to hide besides facing reality and this time I chose the latter. It's not easy when you have been given the task to break the bad news to someone who's been around you your whole life. I'm not saying it, it's my choice. I know I'm selfish but if given a choice I'd rather I get hurt than that person who means so much to be who gets hurt. I'll protect everything I can with all I've got. Through this journey I've learned that sometimes we have no choice but to walk away. In the end I'll end up hurting them more, see the irony? I'm really at wits end.
All I can do now is laugh about it. Fuck, seriously my head feels like it's going to explode.
Everyday I wake up hating everything around me more. It sickens me, it's revolting, just fucking hate this feeling hate breeding in me.
I'm not a pessimist, won't be one anyway, I don't believe in such things. It's just this problem is giving me a hard time that's all.
I really have to thank ![[info]](http://l-stat.livejournal.com/img/userinfo.gif) asazuki_satoka for listening to my ramblings all the time. I know it gets annoying after sometime, but still thanks for listening to the very end(:
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